FIRE

I want to start writing here more regularly, which hopefully means they will be shorter ;)

today...FIRE. 
Steve and I signed up for a class a little while ago that is taught by Jimmy Nimon (Gateway House of Prayer's former director), it's called Cultivating Fiery Devotion. It was one of those scroll down through an email, see the title, realize its on a free evening, say, "why not?" and sign up for it kind of things. But as I have been waiting for it to start, God has begun whispering the word "fire" into my heart and stirring up the inside of me into a longing for the fire of Gods love to consume my heart. Those are all nice words, and I'm sure I've thought about them before but I mean I want the FIRE of GODS LOVE to CONSUME my HEART. 

I want my heart to burn within me
I want to love you like you love me
I want my heart to burn within me
(be the flame inside me)
I want to love you like you love me 
(completely)
I want my heart to burn within me, awaken love
(set your seal upon my heart, Jesus)
this was the joy set before you, that you would have my heart forever
(matt gilman)


Barely beating now, my hear is overcome
I fear there is nothing left for you
can you hear my heart from there?
it seems the distance is what I chose to bear

So rip these tendons, they hinder my reach towards you
rip these tendons, they hinder my reach toward you

would you meet me here?
where I rest my bones, where I lay my head down
this place is my escape
O God I need you to initiate

light up the sky, set our hearts on fire
light up the sky, let us see our creator
(bellavier)

No place Id rather be
no place id rather be
no place id rather be
here in your love,
here in your love

set a fire down in my soul that i can't contain, 
that i can't control
I want more of you God
I want more of you God
(united pursuit)


I want my heart to burn within me. I want to be excited to spend time with you again. I want to be excited to talk to you, to hear from you, to work with you. 
You know what I'm talking about, I don't have to explain it to you. You know why I was born, I was the joy set before you, that you would have my heart completely, forever. That I would be yours. That we would be reconciled, that we would be one. From eternity, you dreamed of me, you created me, you made me and you gave me life, your breath, your spirit. 
Oh God you knew me before I was born. You saw my unformed substance, my inmost parts, the inter workings of my mind, the passions of my heart. and you loved me completely. your hands knit me together, what an insane picture! You fashioned me, you dreamed me up and you made me happen. With your breath, with your voice, with you mind, with your heart, and I came to be.
 This is who I am, I am yours.

I want my heart to burn within me. Your loves flame to blaze inside me. thats what it is to burn, its your love jealous for my heart, consuming the insides of me, consuming the selfishness, the pride, the fear, the insecurity, the anxiety. Only love and joy and peace and faith and hope can withstand the flame. Only pure love, single minded, simple devotion, simple obedience, simply freedom. To love you like you love me.

God set me free to love you completely.
God set me free to love you completely
God set me free to love you completely
with all of me
I could say it seven times for completion,
your gonna have all of me.
your gonna have all my love
your worth it all. 
You are the worthy one
The only one worthy!

I want my heart to burn within me. Like the day that you called me. When you caught me as I was falling. You showed me your face, called me by name and there was nowhere else to turn so I came. 

Im so tired, it seems its my heart that needs revival. I want my heart to burn within me. Right now my mouth is parched and my nails are short and my mind stops short of all of your goodness. my heart is tired and torn, its worn unlike when I was firstborn, into the world, into your kingdom, into your love. Jesus I long to burn! There must be a spark of love in my heart, would you tend it, would you care for it, breathe on it, stir it, speak to it,"rise up! do not to shrink back."
I long to burn. Not just for a moment or just for a season or just for a day, I don't mean to flicker I want to blaze.