When its all been said

When its all been said
and its all been done
when the day has run its course and
come close to its end.
Then I wait here in the silence, the stillness 
my heart aches O God
I don't want to be stuck wishing for what was
But when I look forward I see air and space
and more time to pass, face after face.
Behind a closed door, in a quiet moment
before I lay me down to sleep
its just me. and where's you?
it seems I'm just bruised
I don't want to do it all over again, I feel spent
truth is I'm broken.
I treasure these moments alone
but I don't feel like I can live here
But I don't want to consciously always share and 
express and
explain
I just want to live deeply together
I want someone to see my tears, know my fears, cherish my thoughts and love me this way
Just naturally, not all practically and
matter a fact-ively
real. true. whole. raw. life. one.
one thing you never called me to is fake make believe
but to be known, to be loved, to be one.
normally, naturally, willingly
intimacy.
I don't know what to ask or how to run
please just don't let me go with my song still unsung
Not just because of what I've done
or am doing
what I've said or am saying
but just for me, because you.
in spirit and in truth.